Shoutout to @D_Shaf on Twitter for coming up with the series name "Sunday Scribbles", I love it! I asked for questions on Twitter and said I would answer 5 of them so, here we go!
@ellequeenblair asked, "If forced to choose, would you pick YouTube or blogging?"
My answer for this is always going to be YouTube. YouTube is where I got my start, and honestly, I still love it slightly more than blogging. I think you can form a connection with your viewers through video that you don't quite get to represent through writing and pictures alone, but that being said, I love both of them.
Blogging has been my escape through this injury. Before I was well enough to actually blog myself, I would read other people's blogs. There was something much more soothing about reading written words and looking at pictures versus watching a video, so my YouTube subscription feed got ignored in favor of my Bloglovin' list. You should follow my blogs on there, btw, you can follow this one here and DreaminginBlush here. Bloglovin' is where it's at, because I get sent an email of all the newest posts from all my followed blogs and then I can pick and choose which to read and click through to them.
Sometimes, I enjoy blogging more than making videos. Right now, I don't have a choice. I have 100 video ideas that I can't wait to make that I just can't right now, because my spine isn't strong enough to even sit up straight in a chair for 20+ minutes straight. That's not even counting the fact that I like to include extra bits into my videos, like close up shots and intro pan-overs... filming even a simple sit down video can easily be 1-2 hours of footage!
Short answer: YouTube. But I love you, my dear readers.
@xoForeverLauren said, "Please answer this one! You are such a positive inspiration for me! How do you stay happy & motivated in life?!"
Oh geez, this is a hard one for me right now, because I'm going through a bit of a tough time in my life. I guess I would consider myself, "happy and motivated" even with my injury, but I don't feel that way every single day in my life, even when I'm perfectly healthy. I think my key has always been keeping a planner. I know I have recently become re-obsessed with them, but I have always said that having a planner keeps me on top of myself and makes it much harder to lose several hours of time and not know where they have gone, which easily happens if you start watching TV or browsing the internet. I like to give myself a few goals for the day, and make sure they get done.
That being said, people are going to have bad days, and people are going to have unmotivated days, and sometimes I let myself just roll with it. Today for instance, I woke up just... unhappy. And I just went with it and allowed myself to not really do anything at all. I watched some TV, read some blogs, read a book, took a bath... and now, as I'm about to fall asleep, I'm starting to feel better (which is why I'm writing a blog post now!).
I think you have to just let yourself feel your feelings, and tell yourself that it's ok, as long as it's within reason (like you aren't not getting something done that you really have to).
@monicaj990 asked, "When will you be better enough to go back to LA? Miss your house to home videos."
I get asked this a lot, and actually, I've also had comments along the lines of, "are you ever going back? You seem to like TN more than LA!" This makes me laugh a bit because of COURSE I will be going back to LA; I live there! I own a home there! I have a life and a sister and friends and a boy there! AND A HOME! Hahahaha :)
Going back to the original asker's question though, man, I don't know. At first I thought mid-Jan, but after my check up last week I'm not strong enough yet. It would be hypothetically possible to fly to LA and do all of my physical therapy there, but when I mentioned this to my doctor I got a very strict, "I don't think so," look back. Plus, my Dad, another doctor, said absolutely not. I can't really care for myself completely yet. Yes, I can shower, and do my own laundry, and make myself food, but I can't really go anywhere yet. Small and short Target runs for my planner obsession are about the extent of my outings at this point (other than Physical Therapy and Doctor's appointments) and even then my mom limits those to being very quick. I swear, I thought she was going to physically pick me up and remove me from the Target dollar spot the other day because I was dallying.
When Alex gets back from tour and is back in LA I know I'm going to be itching to get back there, so I'm thinking sometime in late Feb, but honestly I won't know until after a few more weeks of physical therapy.
@FlyFashLiveFree said, "You used to have a strict rule on discussing dating...now with Alex, what's changed?
This is a really hard question to answer, because honestly, I don't know. I wish I had a better answer, or a more specific way of explaining things, but it's just the way I felt. I have had several relationships before this (2 of them long ones) in the 6 years I have been making videos, and not a single one of those boys ever showed up in a video, a picture, not even a mention on social media. I kept it completely separate, and it had always been that way. It got to the point where it was a point to not share anything, because that's just the bar I had set for myself.
I think part of it is that Alex is also a public figure, and he wanted to post things. He wanted to post pictures, and tweet me, and even though I kept it relatively quiet for a long time, he didn't really (hello, Secret Girl and every other song pointing to me). After the "Wake Up Call" video was released, it was kind of out there, and from there it just spiraled.
I still haven't figured out where my own boundaries are with it to be honest. I am still keeping him separate from my main YouTube channel, and haven't talked about him on there (only on social media and my vlogs) but again, it's all a learning process and I don't even know anymore what I'm allowing and what I'm not. I'm human, you know? This is just a tough area for me to figure out.
@izzimarks09 asked, "Will we get an update photo/video tour of your condo when you're all fixed?"
YES YES YES!!!! I am SO excited about this. One thing I have been doing while on bed rest is coming up with "mood boards" for how I want to finish off my condo. The main things left are my two bathrooms and my beauty room, with the beauty room being the most important thing to get done.
I've already talked to my mom and she has agreed to come out to LA for 2 weeks to help me transform that room into what I want since I can't really do anything myself yet, and won't be able to pick up anything heavier than 10 pounds for a very long time. My mom is the best; I told her I could hire a professional organizer and she was totally offended, she thinks it's going to be the best time. Wine and makeup organization with my mama, yes please!